Looking back forward.


Looking back at my statement in week one of this course, I can remember how I felt when I wrote it.

I was anxious, a little nervous and kind of in the middle of treatment for my illness. I felt in between things and as if I didn’t belong anywhere in particular.

In 5 months I have done a full circle. I feel I know where I belong, I know where I’m going and my illness……..what illness!!

I thoroughly enjoyed the first semester at college and learnt so much without realising it. Looking back in my sketch book, it doesn’t seem 2 minutes since we were establishing rules and expectations of the next 2 years, then, all of a sudden we are half way through the first year with a head full of knowledge.

Although I enjoyed the first part of the course, I found it hard to juggle late assignments along with still being ill. I expected this when I started the course, to be put out a little due to illness, but knew I would get through it. Honestly though, it was a lot harder than I thought it would be, but far more rewarding for it.

The best part of last year, I’m sorry to say, was hand in days!! Only because of the relief felt by everyone and how relaxed we all were afterwards. (And how drunk we were after a full day in the pub, but we won’t mention that!)

I found out around Christmas, that I am now pregnant and expecting a baby around September 2007. The news knocked me for 6 and scared me to death but put a lot of things in perspective.

In my previous statement I spoke about how endometriosis is the biggest cause of infertility but yet pregnancy can cure it. When I wrote this I never imagined that 5 months later I would feel like the happiest woman on the planet from news of my pregnancy as, for a start, I didn’t think I could have children.

Before I found out I was pregnant, college was going great. The lead up to deadline week on the 21st December, I worked so hard to catch up and hand my work in on time, I was thankful when it was over. I learnt, however, how dedicated I was to the course and that finishing it is my biggest priority, even after finding out I was pregnant.

I now know where I am heading and that is to the end of this course and to my qualification. It is not the route I intended and will be even harder work with a baby on the way.

Next year I hope to soak up as much knowledge as I can from Steve and everyone around me, especially knowledge on Dreamweaver as I have not come across this software before. I am really looking forward to working with the other ‘2 degrees’, Craig and James, and think I will pick up a lot from them as they are both very knowledgeable within the interactive industries.

I also hope to be able to conduct more self study and do more further study on lectures in my sketch books, as, I would like to have a good representation of my research and study within my sketch books. I also plan to buy more books on the required subjects and engage in further reading.

My main goal for next year is to work to the best of my ability throughout all subjects and try not to concentrate on one at a time, which has been a trend of mine due absence.

Last year I pushed myself hard to reach deadlines but this year I not only don’t want to do that, but I can’t, I can’t have extra stress due to pregnancy. This is all the more reason for me to plan my time, conduct plenty of self study and keep up to date.